Getting back to blogging

So I'm going to try getting back to blogging.  My grandma mentioned at the Thanksgiving dinner that she missed being informed since I stopped blogging.  Alienating my grandma is not what I intended to do (sorry Grandma!) so I'm hoping to get back on track.

I needed a bit of a pick me up this year.  So instead of being my usual tired, scroogy self, I scraped it together and put up Christmas just a few days after Halloween.  I tried to sell our Christmas tree at the yard sale last summer, but no one wanted it in the middle of August or whenever it was.  I'm actually glad it didn't sell.  I like having it there.

We've been listening to Christmas music a lot too.  Geoff actually won tickets on the radio (the station that plays all Christmas starting November) to the Broadway play The Color Purple and Harry Potter premier movie tickets.  We weren't able to make it to Harry Potter, but we did go to the play at Capitol Theater.  People say it's not the most uplifting of plays, but I still thought it was good.  Geoff was excited to have won the tickets, and it was nice to get out and do something unusual.

What else.  I quit my second job.  I feel a little guilty about it because they're such nice people.  But not guilty enough to stay, I guess.  I just really want to focus on my physical and emotional health right now, and other things.  Speaking of physical health - I lost 11 pounds in about that many days on the HCG diet.  Then I quit the diet because of some weird side effects (which it turns out weren't due to the diet, but by the time I learned that, it was too late to go back on it) and gained 9 pounds back within a week, and now in the last two days I've lost three pounds again.  So my weight is pretty unpredictable right now.  Oh well.  What the diet has given me is more motivation to eat healthy and exercise.  Not saying I'm perfect, but better.  And I went off soda for long enough that it gives me headaches to drink it now, so soda is out too.

Gwennie peed on a blanket right in front of me today.  It's twice we've caught her peeing in the house within the last week.  It's either got to be because she hates going out in the snow - which we got about 6 inches of recently, or because she seeks more attention... I have been rather annoyed lately at being constantly climbed on and have not been giving her as much attention.  Either way, I smacked her good - a few times - and we'll be kennel training her again for the remainder of the week, because who knows what else she will pee on if we don't.  I threw that blanket in the wash, plus another one that had been sitting on the floor, just in case.

It's COLD!

I feel like the kid who can't put their arms down.

"Lame" parents are pretty awesome in my book

This made me laugh so hard because that is totally going to be us - and our poor kids.

Blog

Things are so up and down around here.  It almost makes everything just feel meaningless.  And blogging about it equally so.  I'll probably come back to the blog at some point, but for now, I just can't seem to get the will to do it.  So, see ya later.

It calls

Blue = Moody
White = Elusive

While my color code results would suggest that I'm just being moody, I feel very, very White in the last little while.  When I was younger, I used to love jumping in and taking charge.  I enjoyed responsibility.  Dunno, maybe the schooling changed all of that.

Now, I just want as few demands on me as possible.  I hate drama, so much drama.  There are some days, when all I want is to just wave a careless bye-bye to everything not worthy of my attention and precious energy.  To turn my face and envelope myself in newness, where none follow, and no concern to me.

HCG

I'm starting HCG at the end of this week.  Most people probably wouldn't admit that until they'd done it and been successful, but I can't keep it to myself.  I'd be gladly accepting of helpful tips and encouragement!  :)

I read Dr. Simeon's book last night.  It's pretty clear from his writing that he has some real biases about obesity and compulsive eating that I actually thought were sort of ridiculous, but when it got to the part where it explained about the "fat bank" and how the HCG "unlocks" or redistributes the abnormal fat so it can then be used up.  Pretty fascinating.  I understand now how a person can possibly live on 500 calories per day without starving to death (or even being hungry, at least per the book), and without screwing up your metabolism.

The part that I'm most worried about, after some research, is my personal hygiene.  Because you aren't supposed to use anything on your skin that has fat or oil in it, and this includes makeup, deoderant, hair product, shampoo and conditioner, and lotion, among others.  I might go buy some oil-free mineral based foundation, but I don't know if I can or want to replace everything else with what must be expensive all-natural oil-free fancy schmancy stuff.  And I never go anywhere without lip gloss, not since I was twelve.  Maybe some latex gloves would allow me to still put the putty in my hair!  Any suggestions on this stuff would be most appreciated!

It won't be easy, and will require a change in lifestyle afterwards in order to keep the pounds off.  Which means very little sugar for me, the sugar queen!  I'm a little nervous since I've never been able to stick with any diet or exercise plan in my life.  To me, the hardest thing I've ever done was to get through school.  There was a fair amount of complaining, as anyone who read my blog back then would know.  It was hard.  One would think that if I could do that, then I could stick with a diet plan.  I'm hoping that this 23+ days of no refined sugar will sort of detox my body and get me on a better track.  Overall, I'm very excited to get going and watch the pounds melt off!  Wish me luck!